Forgot about this...

So, I wrote this at the end of august, and forgot to post it! Opsies!

The past summer has been a bit of a rollercoaster for myself, but I guess it always is when you’re growing up.

It’s a simple truth, letting go of the things you’ve loved is scary.

Why wouldn’t it be? You’re coming to the shocking realization that the things that you’ve always had around you, the firm solid ground you’ve based your whole life on, is changing, or rather has changed.

I’ve always imagined myself growing up, me going on my adventures in my life.

Get the theme?

I’ve always known I’m going to change, but because I've been so focused on the ways I’m going to be different I never once thought to think about other things might change. I never thought the things that I’ve always grown up, the things that have always been in the back of my mind would change. No, not those steadfast memories that would never leave!

   Life moves on, but you still have those memories and remember those people, even though you never really see them anymore, and you still think of them as being exactly how you remeber them.  Its really quite startling when you wake up to realize that all of that has changed.

That the solid ground you’ve spent your whole life standing on has crumbled away. It leaves you kind of hopeless because you’ve realized that everyone around you has moved on and you’re left behind standing there, and you don’t know where to go next.

You have plans but those plans aren’t quite ready to take place yet so where do you go in the meantime?

And are those plans really where you want to go?

So yeah, it’s a bit scary, but letting go can be so refreshing.

When you realize that some dreams are only dreams and that’s all they ever should be, and that they’re absolute perfect staying dreams, and when you realize that now is the time to really figure out your path.

Where you want to go, what you’re going to be like, and I guess, in a way, who you’re going to be, its a really big relief. 

And, of course, all those dreams and memories will always, always stay with you, and have a huge impact on who you are, and who you will become. 

It’s a bumpy ride trying to figure out your real dreams but once you get to them its so very much worth it.