California Sun

Growing up everybody seems to be going along more or less the same road.  We move at different paces and we hit different bumps along the way, but we're all headed in the same general direction.  But before we've been on that road long it all changes.  Our original road ends and about five million more pop up in its place, and we are given the task of picking which one we will go down.  Intimidating much? It tells a lot about a person when they get the chance to choose, and a lot of the time they take roads you never would have guessed.. or you would have guessed but that take them far away from you nonetheless. Its not easy and a lot of the time it takes people along time to make a decision...

Not me.

I have been one of those people fortunate enough to get a few good hints and find a spyglass along the way, I was one of the ones able to get a glimpse of what was ahead and start preparing accordingly.  So I have.

For about five years now I've had it in my head that I've wanted to do fashion design, and well for those five years there hasn't been a day that I've ever doubted that it was what I wanted to do.  I started to look at art schools around here a while back(I like to plan ahead) but quickly determined that it would be far out of my price range.  I still definitely wanted to purse fashion though, and last year I started looking into what was available at a community college level.  That's where I happened upon FIDM(The Fashion Institute of Design and Merchandising), or rather God placed it in front of me.

I was visiting a college in Tacoma, checking out a pre-fashion design program they had, and while I was there and they had a representative from the college come give us a little info on the college.  After she gave her speel and named a price tag that was half of the local colleges I was captivated..

That was about six months ago... After that I researched FIDM a bit more and always had it as the idea to work toward, but it was never anything definite. But this past month they had a big information session in Bellevue for all the prospective students in Washington.  After going to that and listening to the alumni speak, I knew that this is where I feel I need to go, this is where I feel called to go. God has put this school in my life and it is an amazing school at that!

Two days after Bellevue I met with one of the heads of administrations, as she was in town for a couple days, talked details and I now have my application.  I have an advisor at the school, I'm taking my SATs in the beginning of December, and once I get my scores and finish up a portfolio to send in, I will have my application turned in.

I never thought I'd ever go to California, and I never thought I would be able to afford a college as nice as this, but with hard work, scholarships, a little help, and a lot of God I really believe it will happen. Life is exciting, and if this works out it will be such a great chapter in my life, and I'm going to learn so incredibly much!

So, Lord willing, I will be going to the LA campus when I graduate community college for a fifteen month program in fashion design!

http://fidm.edu/en/Visit+FIDM/Launch+Virtual+Tour/ Check it out!!! :D (LA campus)

Godspeed and sweet dreams..

Xx Becfola

Worry or Believe

As much as I will always hate to admit it, and always be in denial of it, I worry.  I worry quite a lot actually.

I worry about the future, the unknown... I'm afraid of what could happen or rather what couldn't happen.  I have so many dreams, they're what motivate my every move in that crazy old game called life.  I put so much stock in these dreams and because of that I never-ever-ever stop worrying about them.  I can never get the thought "They're probably not going to come true Becca, they're far to much of a long shot." out of the back of my mind, every time I think about my future I hear those words.  No matter how many times I come up with sound logical reasons why it'll happen, or tell myself that it has to happen because I feel so close to it or so strongly about it, or how many signs I point out to my head that suggest the dreams are right around the corner I can never quite believe.

Well I'm done. No more worrying for me.

I have recently been able to see that when God steps up to the plate, when He is on your team, you can win any game. I was able to witness the dreams of someone who is very close to my heart come true.  By being able to see how God helped that person every step of the way, I finally realized that with His help you can make anything happen.. He can make anything happen.  I repeat. ANYTHING   ...I have this slightly unfortunate tendency to "know" really obvious things that I've been told, or have read thousands of times but never ever REALIZE those things ...It makes life a little interesting sometimes... but anyway the point is that I have finally realized that idea I've been told so many times. I'm done worrying about weather or not it'll happen because I've seen it happen, because He made it happen. Most important if I just sit and worry I KNOW those dreams won't come true, God won't make it happen unless I'm working toward it. So I'm going to get off my butt, work harder than I possibly could by myself, and rely completely on God.  And that plus a bit of prayer means those dreams can come true.  Every single one of them. It's not unlikely, its possible.

I finally believe, and I finally refuse to listen to that voice.

A few words to help remind me along the way of discovering my dreams:

"Go confidently in the direction of your dreams, live the life you've always imagined"

"If we all did the things we are capable of doing we would literally astound ourselves." -Thomas Edison

"Break the monotony. Do something strange and extravagant!"

"Only dull people are brilliant at breakfast."

"There's a boy next to me and he never will be anything but a boy at the bar
And I think he's the tops, he's where everything stops
How I love to love him from afar

When he walks right past me I finally see on this barstool I can't stay
So I'm taking my frown to a far distant town
On an island in the blue bay" -Far Away by Ingrid Michealson

"The man who travels a mile each day may get around the world at last."

"l'arte d'arrangiarsi" translation: The art of making something out of nothing.

"Sometimes in our lives
We all have pain
We all have sorrow
but if we are wise
we know there's always tomorrow

Lean on me
When you're not strong
And I'll be your friend
I'll help you carry on
For it won't be long
Till I'm gonna need
Somebody to lean on...

...If there is a load that you have to bear
That you can't carry
I'm right up the road
I'll share your load
If you just call me" -Lean On Me

...And I saved the longest one for last.. yes you should read it all.

Can't

Can't is the worst word that's spoken;
Doing more harm here than slanders and lies;
On it is many strong spirit broken,
And with it many good purpose dies.
It springs from the lips of the thoughtless each morning
And robs us of courage we need through the day:
It rings in our ears like a warning
And laughs when we falter and fall by the way.

Can't is the father of feeble endeavor,
The parent of terror and halfhearted work;
It weakens the efforts of artisans clever,
And makes of the toiler an indolent shirk.
It poisons the soul of the man with a vision,
It stifles in infancy many a plan;
It greets honest toiling with open derision
And mocks at the hopes and the dreams of a man.

Can't is a word none should speak with out blushing;
To utter it should be a symbol of shame;
Ambition and courage it daily is crushing;
It blights a man's purpose and shortens his aim.
Despise it with all of your hatred of error;
Refuse it the lodgement it seeks in your brain;
Arm against it as a creature of terror,
And all that you dream of you someday will gain.

Can't is the word that is foe to ambition,
An enemy ambushed to shatter your will;
its prey is forever the man with a mission
And bows but to courage and patience and skill.
Hate it, with hatred that's deep and undying,
For once it is welcomed 'twill break any man;
Whatever the goal you are seeking, keep trying
And answer this demon by saying: "I can."

Godspeed and sweet dreams.

Xx

Becca

Honey I'm Home

HELLO! I have returned!

After one furry little puppy chewed up the powercord to my "slightly" damaged hand-me-down laptop I have yet to post a new ramble on my not-so-much-but-still-extremely-exciting life.  You see, sitting in our cold office staring up at my dad's fairly large computer screen just isn't near as inspiring as sitting on my wonderfully comfy and warm bed.  End of story. But I am now back as I have a new powercord and my life has slowed down just enough to spend a little extra time on me!

It is sufficient to say that A LOT has changed since the last time I posted.  Its a little bit mind boggling all the change that has come over the past year... everything, and I mean everything, has changed.  And they haven't exactly been small changes, rather they've been those slightly earth shattering, life changing, chapter closing, personality altering sorts of changes that FORCE you to grow up quite a bit.  But fret not its all been for the good, and most of those changes came as smoothly as possible... mostly.

I'm not going to go into detail of all my life changes but rather I will just list a few of the more recent, and more pertinent ones.

Number one: I GOT A JOB!!!!!! :D I am now a cashier/barista/bakery associate/busboy at the one and only Panera Bread.  Its great, I love the people I work with, my boss is pretty stinkin awesome, I work more than I thought I'd be able to, and its a great place to work so that I can continue to pursue my dreams.  Yay God.

Number two:  I am(pretty much) finished with being a homeschooler! Co-op is out, I have a test to take in chemistry, and then I'm done. Then off to college in the fall for little baby Becca.

Number three: I'm taking all the change going on in my life, turning it into creative energy, and redecorating my room. I 'm VERY excited about this and have been wanting to do it for about a year now. I think now is the perfect time for it.  Its turned into a sort of therapy for me, a way to release all the nervous energy that comes from change, and a way to keep from bottling everything up inside.

So yup. That's my life work, sleep, art, sleep, and whole lot more work.  Oh! and I do have my permit but I have yet to drive anywhere, so that hasn't really affected anything... though there has been tell of my father taking me driving this weekend as he is on vacation! I shall update you on the outcome of that one.

Cheers all! I have missed this, and am happy to be back.


Finally, a little note to help you through the tough times, it sure helped me.

"Barns burnt down... now I can see the moon."